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Joe Barksdale opens up about his lifelong fight with depression

Lifelong Battle

Joe Barksdale

Joe Barksdale

Retired NFL

I wanted to die. I know it’s shocking to hear, but these are thoughts I’ve been living with for 20-something years. And sometimes, I mean, you realize … you think death’s gotta be easy ’cause life is hard. So that’s why I’m not speaking about the depression. That’s why I make music.

Los Angeles Chargers offensive tackle Joe Barksdale opens up about his lifelong battle with depression, and how he’s using music to help himself and others in need.

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